If It Works, Why Not?

If no one has noticed with my last few posts- I am totally not happy, depressed, overwhelmed and feeling really unappreciated... And I hate feeling this way. I have always struggled with an anxiety disorder and trying to look to the positive side of things has always been a helpful tool in keeping me going. And I know there are others out there who have things way worse but I cannot help but feel negative right now... Tomorrow I have a meeting with my son's school where he attends a special ed preschool and we are going to be reviewing "how well he is doing and how well he is achieving his goals" and his IEP (Individualized Education Plan) - to the parents who do not have child with special needs, yes this is a good thing BUT this is also a bad thing and currently it is more bad than good. This means that I am likely going to be walking into this meeting with a group of people who's initiative appears to be removing my son from the preschool program and are "n...

For some time I have felt very under appreciated. Like all the things I do go unnoticed and only the things I don't do or don't do "right" are noticed. I load the dish washer wrong or don't finish the laundry fast enough or clean up immediately... I personally don't see anything wrong with how I do things and yes, I do admit I don't clean up right away at times but that is usually because I am so over whelmed with everything else I am keeping up with. Last night I got to hear all about how I can't do anything right. I was so pissed off and hurt, after I put the kids to bed, I literally locked my husband out of our bedroom while I balled on the bed. Eventually I let him in and then I went off about how I am sick of feeling reprimanded for not doing things right and how all the things I do go unnoticed especially when I make it a point to tell him thank you for everything he does (because he DOES do a lot around the house). Afterwards I ran down a list...