If It Works, Why Not?

So I have been trying to adjust to staying home and so far so good. I have been worried about getting "cabin fever" especially since I have always worked outside of the home and am naturally one of those people who is always on the go but with the kids I am staying BUSY! And so I do not go crazy without adult interaction I have made a point to try and attend every mom's night I can - You can only go so long without going nuts when you only talk to preschoolers all day... I am even hosting a "mom's night" at my house in just over a week too! I am excited and hope that I have a descent turn out. My friend who is a masseuse is going to be giving discounted professional back massages too- I am definitely looking forward to that- I can use a massage! I have also been worried about income too. I have always brought home a paycheck and with me not going to work we are loosing half of our income. We have been working towards getting things paid off but still have a ...

I was reading the blog of a dear friend of mine and in it she was discussing the anxieties and worries a parent has of their child growing up and finding love especially when that child has thier own "scars", whether it be a literal scar, a health concern or even emotional scarring.... And I caught myself as I read her posting, thinking about my own "scars" and how that has effected my own life and my own relationships and I began to run my own fears through my head for my own children- are you ever inspired to write about something after reading something by someone else?.... (so this is my fears).... My daughter is loving and outgoing. My husband and I tease that she will be the next big diva as she gets older as anytime the radio is on she is singing and dancing along (and she does know most of the lyrics). But at the same time, my daughter is not like most girls her age. Yes, she loves playing dress up and with her princess and fairy dolls, but she would rather ...

So tomorrow is Monday and I am dreading it. Tomorrow is when I make it official that my life is going to change in a huge way and its changing to a life full of uncertainties... Tomorrow is the day that I turn in my notice.... This is one of the scariest things I have ever done. For as long as I have been able, I have worked. Before working for an actual paycheck I babysat and as soon as I turned 16 I was working an earning my own money, sometimes even working more than one job at a time. Only one time I can recall that I didn't work was when I was put on bed rest with my oldest daughter, but even then I knew it was just until she was born. My husband and I started dating when I was 18 and we moved in together when I was 19 and I brought half of the income home even then. Now everything has changed and I am quite honestly, TERRIFIED! The financial and emotional uncertainties that lay ahead in the unknown make me want to ball up and cry in fear at times, yet I still have a feeling o...