If It Works, Why Not?

Today I was caught by surprise. My phone rang and the caller ID showed my old office number. At first I thought it may had been one of my friends calling to catch up while on break but I was caught off guard when I heard my old boss's voice. They wanted me back. I left the office torn. I loved my job and I honestly felt I was good at it. I loved working with the people I worked with and I have to say that I hold the company and it's motto to the highest regards as they actually do put their clients best interest first and I have seen those amazing morals at work. I had wonderful benefits and very decent pay. The bureaucracy of compliance and new business processing/operations was actually interesting and enjoyable. I like to cross my T's and dot my I's. I felt I had a voice and my opinions taken into consideration whenever needed. I was on a team. But I got pregnant with my youngest and from there things changed very suddenly for me when she was due. My middle child is ...

I started this post a couple of weeks ago so please dismiss the off time line: This morning started out rough. I woke up using what seemed like all the energy I had after a night of tossing and turning, just to pull myself out of bed. My body ached as if I was fighting off some sort of cold with no symptoms other than fatigue. I woke up Paxston and Mikey while Mike continued sleeping and grabbed clothes for them to wear to school and rushed downstiars to start making breakfast and packing Paxston's lunch before the preschoolers started arriving. Yesterday was Paxston's birthday. I cannot believe she is already 6 years old. After my preschoolers were picked up yesterday we went out to eat at Panda Express- not the fanciest but she has been begging to go there for a while and asked if we could go for her birthday so we figured we could splurge as long as we didn't go nuts on what we ordered. We split an orange chicken and fried rice bowl and a couple of sides of chow mein...